she is Mv

Michael Jackson Tribute : Better On the Other Side

2009-06-26T17:30:00.007-04:00

Wow my last post was MJ related and just like that he's gone. The jokes the ridicules about his personal life hold no weight compared to what he gave the world.He will always be the GREATEST.The love we all have for him outweighs everything else. He can never be replaced. May his soul be at peace.

MJ

2009-06-18T01:57:00.002-04:00

I ♥ you Michael. But seeing this made me want to return everything I own with leopard =|

T-Pain.. Mr Funny Man.

2009-06-18T00:45:00.006-04:00

Just when I thought it couldnt get any worse here goes T-Pain with his Big A$$ Chain. He's a fool for this one. Its amusing to see artists take shots at themselves.

New Video : Jadakiss ft Swiss Beatz & OJ Da Juiceman - Who's Real

2009-06-11T22:17:00.001-04:00

Certified Banger : Lil' Wayne, Drake & Jeezy - Im Goin In

2009-06-11T21:56:00.005-04:00

They Goin In!

Mary Mary : God In Me

2009-06-09T14:36:00.006-04:00

"You see her style you think she nice
You look at her whip you say the whip tight
But everything she’s got the girl’s been given
She calls it a blessing but you call it living

What is it you think you see
When you see me, you see me
You don't know how much I pray
Don't know how much I gave
Don't know how much I changed
I'm just tryna explain

It’s the God in me"

New Girl groups : Enough is Enough

2009-05-28T22:16:00.017-04:00

Quiz :Who is Who?
..Electrik Red, Sophia Fresh, now RichGirl
Answer : Who gives a Damn

These girl groups have got to stop saturating the industry. Call me a hater but theres nothing Electric, Fresh nor original about ANY of these groups. What happen to the days of En Vogue, TLC, Xscape, Destiny's Child...?

There were things that made each of them special in their own way shu even Spice Girlz had their own thing going..but now the talent of girl groups have gone extinct until Danity Kane & we all saw how that went down.

4 members 1 lead?..Kelis Knockoff.

Now were left with these pitiful attempts of groups with no originality & no sense of uniqueness that sets them apart. & It saddens better yet disgusts me thas this is what labels have to offer us!

the kicker I found was one member of Richgirl stating "The group wants to "bring the singing back to the songs", which they feel is lacking in the music industry...I agree! But as for Sophia Fresh let ur voices be ur spotlight not ur dreadful outfits. All of this is soo not necessary.

Crayola has a clothing line???

All these girls are just crutches for one another . Yeah girl groups are definitely making a comeback but this aint it!

Memo to : T-Pain ,The Dream ,& Rich Harrison.. Ur girls are weak pretty but weak! I see the trend and quite frankly Im not moved.Actually although Richgirl has the DC flair going..I can tolerate them, Sophia Fresh and Electik Red not so much. Throw these chicks back where u got them from.

Fire & Ice Hookah Loungin

2009-05-18T01:17:00.016-04:00

GoodTimes ♥Crystal Crew & The Mr =)

New Artist 2 Watch : Melanie Fiona "Give It To Me Right"

2009-05-10T15:54:00.008-04:00

Gotta support my Guyanese folk. Melanie Fiona is a upcoming artist from Toronto, Canada who was opening act for Kanye Wests European leg of his Glow in the Dark tour & by the sounds of her first single she has a nice soulful thing goin which I always love =)
Look out for more of her work

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This is what Ive Been Missing...

2009-05-06T16:08:00.008-04:00

Russell Simmons : Brave New Voices Airs on HBO .
Sundays @ 11.
Im tardy. Yes I know =|

Shawnna is a BEAST!!!!

2009-05-06T14:55:00.003-04:00

I seen this video some time ago and came across it a second time recently so I just have to say... Shawnna is indeed one of the BEST Female Rap Artists. Hands Down. Two mics!?! man listen. I don't think yall understand.

Battle of The Sexes Out this summer. Luda + Shawnna = Maddness.

Teairra Mari (Feat. Flo-Rida) - Cause A Scene

2009-05-06T13:00:00.002-04:00

"I’m demanding all of my respect I don’t care who’s bout to see me
Cause a scene up in here" ha ..i know thats right

...not bad Teairra. shes trying to stay current I aint mad at that.

The Met Costume Gala : Can They Live?!

2009-05-06T10:53:00.015-04:00

So I twittered about this and I realized I needed more then 140 characters to get my point across lol.

So this red carpet Costume Gala is held every year at The MET...I get it if ur full of urself and just wanna be normal and wear a gown just like every other female celeb does to EVERY other red carpet event but this is a COSTUME GALA.

So let those who dressed the part for the event breathe! These Fashion critics & bloggers with this best/worst dressed list kill me sometime..This is not the time.Dont they ever take a day off?? I mean this should be ur one day of rest. Can they Live!?

I dont get it.. Why cant ppl just be free to be as creative as they wish to an event that calls to do so?? In my opinion if you're gonna "play it safe" & be plain Jane by wearing a regular gown to a "COSTUME GALA" save ur $6,500 for the ticket and stay the hell home. Madonna could have too but ateast she tried lmao

If you're gonna be normal atleast let something stand out, a color perhaps.?Katy Perry Held it down for the normal & fabulous"

NO BODY WANTS TO SEE THIS! =|

AND OUT OF ALL PPL KANYE MAN!!!.
You shouldve worn a damn Spacesuit or something
..Im Dissapointed.
I EXPECT SO MUCH MORE FROM YOU.

Kelis Confirms Divorce From Nas

2009-05-01T00:45:00.007-04:00

I was so rooting for these too.
& to be 7 months pregnant..smh..
..sadness all around. =(

Maxwell - Pretty Wings

2009-05-01T00:24:00.002-04:00

Oh how we've missed u Maxwell ♥
BLACK in stores July 7th.

Karina Pasian : Mercury

2009-05-01T00:10:00.003-04:00

make way for real music. ♥

Mariah Then & Now

2009-04-21T15:27:00.008-04:00

like seriously this woman has not aged ..and I wanna know whats the secret lol...is it special milk baths like tina turner that keeps her skin looking so youthful lol...I know its not the makeup..and its defintely not young whipper snapper Nick Cannon bc shes looked the same for years...and even better now then she has in the past & still I have yet to see a wrinkle on her face..it just intrigues me.

even on on a natural day...
where are ur wrinkles MARIAH?!
lmao OUT WITH IT!!

Beyonce Shuts Down London with 100 Single Ladies Dancing

2009-04-21T15:16:00.003-04:00

Bey got it on lock..
"How you gone be talkin' shit?
You act like I just got up in it
Been the number one diva in this game for a minute
I know you read the paper
The one that they call a queen
Every radio round the world know me
'Cause that's where I be"

...I know she may appear to be this 'picture perfect barbie doll', are you even human beyonce? "Oh i cant talk about that" lmao... but I respect her hustle no one can deny that...so come June 21st she'll be kicking her I am Tour at Madison Sqaure Garden...I may be broke, but her concerst are worth every penny. ♥

Sex Sells.

2009-04-20T11:08:00.006-04:00

Is Kanye marketing his new line of kicks or Amber?... the focus on whats on his feet is for 2 seconds if that, but thats only After having google eyes on Amber lmao...either way Joe Budden is doing it with Tahiri..my thought? : "clever men" very clever lol

JoeBuddenTV : Music Fantasy Draft Pick

2009-04-16T02:08:00.004-04:00

These are the conversations/debates I loooove to get into...Rhianna a Ms.Potato head lmao...Joey is funny as hell.. "I didnt know a f'kn thing when they spent all that f'kn money and neyo-came-and-saved-the-day-with-that-irreplacable record".. whew he said that in one breath..thats how intense he was..I love JoeBuddenTv for this!...

Studio Session : Ryan Leslie Keri Hilson & Fab

2009-04-11T02:13:00.004-04:00

If this isnt inspiration idk what is. man..I need to be doing what they doin =|

Final King magazine : Keyshia Cole & Tahiri Recession Special

2009-04-10T21:23:00.009-04:00

All the inquiring minds were wondering who would grace the last issue...& its a tie..*claps*
Yup thats right two for the price of one: Keyshia's breasts and Tahiri's behind..

...I'm a Keyshia Cole fan & a JoeBuddenTv Tahiri watcher lol...
but I have one question...Why they do that to Keyshia?

"shawty look stank"-jaye =| & I agree,Out of ALL the poses.. they chose the middle/high school one leg bent hand on knee pose as the cover!..smh...I'm a bit bothered by this lol..maybe its just me but I dont understand. ah well.

Cassie...April fools is over honey.

2009-04-10T19:07:00.016-04:00

this has got to be a joke..She mustve been going for the Amber Rose look and got scarred midway..or had kelis on the brain..hmmm

I cant blame the girl for trying to be "cool & different"..I'm mean she does need ALL the buzz she can get for her next album. ha....but either way it doesnt look bad though, not to me atleast. I may not dislike the cut but in my eyez shes still WHACK...pretty but whack. & this was just an attempt to get some shine. Nothing more nothing less.

Lovey Dovey : Dream & Christina Milian

2009-04-08T14:54:00.004-04:00

"love the hair...mmm the Dreeeeeam, thats like wonderful"....lmao that sarcasm was pretty damn funny if you ask me.
AND THEN to top it off some lady is like "whats her name???" thats just awful.
I mean Christina Milian may not be Beyonce..but shes def a step up from.....whats her name???? ooooo Nivea, I almost forgot. lmao

Guinness World Record Holder! =P

2009-04-04T02:16:00.007-04:00

...okay Im not on much of a hiatus..since Im actually posting huh lol? Well I guess its MV time..for the moment
I just couldnt pass up sharing what Ive been doing these past few days...

& as u can see im not being as productive as I said I was when I said Id be taking a break from posting.. with exams and projects coming up i shouldnt even be allowed near a computer=|..its the procrastinator in me..besides how could I pass up the opportunity to be one of the 1,500+ dumbasses at Rutgers dressed as Waldo?
Don't u wish u were as cool as us lmao =P

MHB..not.lol

2009-04-03T18:31:00.005-04:00

Mv & Friends : MHB Auditions NYC

2009-04-02T18:11:00.003-04:00

...something to hold yall over

2009-03-31T20:53:00.001-04:00

....

2009-03-27T12:13:00.002-04:00

until further notice.

In the meantime pray for my audition tomorrow March 28! For Making His Band
Ill be back with those updates. & videos of my experience along the way. Much ♥

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When the truth comes to light C.Mili & the Dream =|

2009-03-22T20:56:00.004-04:00

C'mon mayne we ALL KNEW, body language doesnt lie. So why the hell did they try and hide it? Better yet why did SHE try to hide it. Labeling it as just a"close working relationship" paah as if we wouldnt find out... if your with Dream so the hell what???.. but why lie? I just dont get that. If your happy your happy. I ain't mad at that.

But what is bothering me is that I didnt want to think she was really f'kin for tracks..but this is removing my doubt.smh..Dre.Dream,I wouldnt be surprised for her next album shes opening legs for another producer. ugh I'm so disgusted -_-

Okay Ciara

2009-03-19T01:23:00.004-04:00

Ciara looks great dont get me wrong
but for some reason when I seen this photo it felt like I had deja vu

...I keep having Beyonce's "single ladies" and "diva" video flashbacks
or maybe its just me =|..am I reaching? lol

Update! Keri Hilson's ♫In a Perfect World♫ Leaked

2009-03-17T21:20:00.022-04:00

On March 13, 2009, In a Perfect World... leaked in its entirety. However the planned Lil Jon and T-Pain collaboration "Hey Girl" was taken off the tracklist. Yet, in the album booklet, which also leaked, T-Pain and Lil Jon are featured as guests, even though the song isn't on the album.

& just a few hrs ago I became one of those ppl who had access to the album before its release date,March 24th..Dont Judge Me lol.
Its okay if u feel some type of way..maybe next time lol =P

Her Album overall is a good listen I can honestly just go through it without skipping.. except maybe 2 which is pretty good for a 14 song list, I must say.Keri Def did her thing with her first release as I hoped for =)

There is an uptempo vibe to this album..as expected..& keri jumps on the infamous auto-tune bandwagon =| with songs like "Get Your Money Up" with a mix in of slower tempo songs like "Tell Him The Truth" which is my second favorite next to "Where Did He Go" which Ive played out since last year lol...

There a long list of tracks that were thought to be on there back in 07 when the album was to be released. I'm so glad "Get it Girl" didnt make the cut...that track should have just been sold to Ciara off top.."Happy Juice" is still my jam lol,& so is Love Ya.

Here are some of my picks that are definitely repeat worthy!

Music for the Soul

2009-03-17T15:14:00.008-04:00

♫One day your gonna wake up and find out
That a time can not rewind
While your out chasin' things
Seems like your flyin right past your dreams♫

..why u gotta put me out there eric =|

Amber Rose Talks

2009-03-17T13:03:00.007-04:00

Amber Rose shares intimate details about her personal life, relationships etc.on Lip Service radio

I listened to it and its definitely not for the prude @ heart.
Some ppl may feel some type of way about the things she shares...
but I still think shes flyy regardless LOL. take it for what it is.

Listen to it @ ur own risk...
of course u would have to find the audio first.
I wont be supplying that. =)

Jadakiss - Cant Stop Me

2009-03-16T22:32:00.003-04:00

yeah I gotta admit I slipped...
this video been out wth was I?... (sleepin) aparently lol..
"The last kiss" in stores April 7th! =)

Top Model Auditions Stampede

2009-03-16T20:05:00.004-04:00

good lord..this is such a mess.This happened saturday for ANTM Casting in NYC after it was reported that there was a car on fire after being overheated...there were thousands there as u can see from the video..some camped out over night and waited online for more then 10 hrs to only be trampled over & have it all shut down. such a shame...

I sure hope something like this doesnt happen for MHB auditions! I can only imagine..Im getting mentally prepared for all that can go wrong =|

Here they are again=)

2009-03-16T19:09:00.007-04:00

Kanye West & Amber Rose at the Metropolitan Opera’s 125th Anniversary gala

as promised I said I would be anticipting Ye & Amber's next outing...this time she looks quite dashing with a classy look going on
♥ it..Ye is ahiight ..I kinda forgot he was even in the picture LOL

New Video Fat Joe ft Akon - ♫ One ♫

2009-03-14T15:18:00.013-04:00

Im not much of a Fat Joe fan...nor an Akon one. and this song doesnt change that. But one thing is for sure the combination of Akon's hook & the beat..makes this such adecent song on both of their behalfs. ♫ We all need 1.♫

New Video : Joe Budden - ♫ In My Sleep ♫

2009-03-14T01:47:00.020-04:00

Buddens brings the Fiyahhh once again.."& I ♥ it!"
This dude is SUCH a lyricist...
But his words just goes over ppls head...
Yall..NEED to appreciate this man.

Let me use this time to vent real quick....
For those of you not feeling this dude you're INSANE. & so is Def Jam!Please wake the hell up & realize everything you may hear on the radio IS NOT Music..what ever happen to the story tellers and the music with substance? Were so saturated with hooks like "do the stanky leg"...that we seem to forget what hip-hop use to be..thanx u Joey. all isnt lost.

-Padded Room Cop the album.Fin.

Get It Together

2009-03-12T22:00:00.005-04:00

I have a question, why must females wear weave when its NOT NECESSARY!!!I dont know bout yall but it upsets the heck outta me.& then to top it off it looks a Horrid MESS!! C'mon C.Mili GET It TOGETHER..we had enough screwed up faces when we seen u go blond..now it looks like this! Tell me.. "Who.TheHell did this to you?HUH?!So I can back hand em with a closed fist.

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For All You Twitter Heads

2009-03-12T20:27:00.012-04:00

Heres something Im about to try so I figured Id put some of you up on it if you werent already =) heres a brief disciption:

-connects to multiple Twitter, laconi.ca, Friendfeed and Seesmic accounts
-displays notifications for new messages
-shorten long URLs (using bit.ly, snurl, twurl or is.gd)
-cross-post your updates to Jaiku and many other sites like Facebook, MySpace, LinkedIn and more via Ping.fm
-post images to TwitPic
.etc

*in short terms it sort of like a "messenger" for twitter lol
go to http://www.twhirl.org/ for more info =)

Diddy's Tweets Made It to NYMagazine

2009-03-12T20:22:00.008-04:00

"Is Diddy’s Twitter Making Kanye’s Blog Irrelevant?"

the comments left by readers make this all the more comical:

"If Diddy can be posting multiple times a minute - then couldn't you deduce that he is like a billion others i.e. bored shitless at home - and therefore no more relevant than your average Joe..."

"It's not just Diddy. Snoop Dogg was complaining about his lowly 40,395 Followers today. Souljaboy set a target of acquiring 3,000 in one day. I love that Twitter allows rappers to be nerds just like the rest of us."

"not only that, but his posts are inspiring. hope diddy keeps it up. i dont see why not. but i WOULD like to see kanye get on twitter. i like that guy. no homo."

"Once billionaires have time to twitter, the game is over. I'd like to see one of them donate $1 for every new twitter follower they receive within a 24-hour time period. 1st ever twitter-thon."
Im so with dude on this one! lol

"I just STOPPED following Diddy. That asshole tweets every fricken 2 minutes and its kinda annoying because they all say something like "LETS GO PEOPLE.Look Diddy, stop telling me what to do."

idk or maybe Im just a cornball. but these comments sure made me chuckle

New Single Day 26 - ♫ Imma Put It On Her ♫

2009-03-12T02:02:00.005-04:00

Definitely a banger.

New Video : Chrisette Michele ♫ Epiphany ♫ (Drake Cameo)

2009-03-12T01:36:00.001-04:00

Im definitely a Chrisette Michele fan but ah idk how to feel about this song..Ive heard it a few times and it still hasnt grown on my like her other songs off her last album..but then again not every song off of it was repeat worthy in my opinion..=| or maybe its just that im not in this vibe at the moment...who knows.

So why did I post it you ask?..because its Chrisette Michele duh lol..& shes one of the "Real" ones alongside other singers out right now like Jazmin Sullivan & J Hud, so whether I like the song or not I have to give props when its due..=)
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WHERE IS SHE?!?

2009-03-11T01:44:00.013-04:00

As of December 2008, the album has sold a total of 28,408 copies.Miss Karina is signed to DEF JAM...yet where is she?!? This girl is only 17..and has soOo much soul and talent that not many artist have these days. Out of the many convos with the Mr about music this one boggled me the most...."like wth...her Godfather is Quincy Jones, couldnt he have pulled some strings and got her more exposure?"

She has potential on soo many levels (wiki her if ur not familiar)
but shes slept on, not by fans but her own label! But he pointed out "the best thing is shes still young and she can come out when shes 22" and I couldnt agree more. & even though some ppl may not know who she is..she managed to get a Grammy nomination!

I'm sure Karina's second album will have more success...once she finally has the right ppl behind her that believe in her like I sure do. Because I can definitely see her taking home a Grammy in the future..Until then I'll continue to embrace the greatness. ♫
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♫I want you to love my mind, my smile, my style
I want you to know the best of me
I want to belong without being treated like property
Why does this feel like fantasy♫
....girl tell it!

Kanye is Good All By Himself But She Makes Him Better.♥

2009-03-10T16:06:00.034-04:00

I Dont know what it is But I ♥ these two... Actually I do know what it is lol...Her confidence and his arrogance are such an ideal match. Seeing them Out & About makes me slightly forget about Bey and Jay.. (I said slightly) lol...

& ofcourse there are ppl trying to dig up as much dirt from her past,but for what!? Okay okay shes not much of a Super"Model", she use to be a "dancer",& on & on..but "Shes BaDD!!!! & that almost bald head of hers makes her all the more appealing..& The girl can DRESS!! Whew..

Now how long will they last? ahh who cares...lol..For the mean time I'll continue to follow their outings..in anticipation of the next outfit shell pull off =)

Keri Hilson : Make Love

2009-03-09T23:23:00.001-04:00

..yeah it fooled me too lol...

Another MTV Show Worth Watching

2009-03-09T21:09:00.004-04:00

Taking The Stage will premiere March 19 at 10pm

Yeah so... I'll be including this into my weekly idiot box programs to watch. This just makes me regret not being in a performing arts school myself..but ah well, itll be interesting to watch nonetheless...
I cant change the past but I can create my future ♥

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Dang.

2009-03-09T19:43:00.002-04:00

I felt bad for the girl.. I can see she felt akward and while watching this it made me feel hella awkward too..
This performance was wrong in sooo many ways.
Who the hell is managing her?? where are her ppl that r suppose to be stopping this dreadful attempt of exposure???

& then to top it off she had to entertain some random guy who more then likely didnt have any idea who she was.Dang Teairra did it have to come to this?...
*I cant stop shaking my head*

I know she has her spirits high for this "comeback" & this "performance" is just an attempt to get her face back out there but this is NOT how its suppose to go down.
It doesnt take a psychic to know this upcoming album will flop. =|

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GET YOUR KIDS!!!!

2009-03-05T23:13:00.010-05:00

This is the world we live in...when two young women go to court to support a woman beater only because hes a celebrity. SMDH

Dumb, just dumb! They might as well hold up a sign that says,
”We support domestic violence!” What are they thinking?

& WHERE THE HELL ARE THEIR PARENTS?!?!!!
IM SO DISGUSTED WITH THIS WHOLE MESS.

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Wow. Really Nivea?

2009-03-05T00:08:00.008-05:00

As the saying goes
"Better to keep your mouth closed and be thought a fool
than to open it and remove all doubt"

I never cared too much for her.
And about that comeback question...
You dont need a comeback Nivea.
No one even noticed you were gone.

and by the way..
Cocaine is one hell of a drug.

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When Being Unprofessional...is Crystal Clear

2009-03-04T23:53:00.012-05:00

They mustve thought I Had A**HOLE Written On My Forehead

For the few that may have read my last post.
I was a bit perturbed..and said somethings that might deem inappropriate, so I deleted it.

But Id like to summarize that whole post by saying..
Being passive was never something instilled in me as an adolescent. Nor has being gullible ever been one of my traits.
And although yall are known to throw ppl under the bus and run over the weak minded.I'm not built to withstand all the negative atmosphere there.I had my share of it for the past 3 years.

But I did gain something out of this whole experience...
and that was Resume qualifications.So thank you! =)

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New Videos : J Sullivan- ♫ Dream Big ♫ Musiq - ♫ Sobeautiful ♫

2009-03-04T00:00:00.010-05:00

Finally.. My Fall 08 anthem now has a video and has become a single. AS EXPECTED =)
This song sings right to my ♥
... down to my soul.

Musiq..his songs are so nastalgic.
Im so thankful for this man and his music. I really am lol

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Keri Hilson Ft. T-Pain & Lil Wayne - ♫ Turnin Me On Remix ♫

2009-03-03T22:55:00.013-05:00

Now Ive heard the song

"Your vision cloudy if you think that you the best
You can dance she can sing, but you need to move it 'to the left'
She need to go have some babies
She need to sit down she fake

Them other chicks ain't even worth my time to talk about
Been had dollars, gone get your money up
Go head tell these folks how long I've been writing your songs...
I been putting you on just check the credits hoe
and if you want me you can find me in decatur hoe" - Keri Hilson

Everyone believes that Keri is taking direct shots at B on this 1
& I can understand why ppl would think that
I also understand why she said what she said.
I'm a fan of both artists but Beyonce has been known to take credit for songs written by someone else for example : Irreplacable which Ne-Yo wrote & Keri Hilson co-wrote. That B put off as her own.
Keri only aired the TRUTH

Personally it doesnt even matter who she was referring to,
its pretty obvious & Although Keri said it wasnt a publicity stunt and she just had to get it off her chest.. ahh I'm not too sure about that lol

But it kind of boggles me...I really didnt see this one coming,
I mean I got ♥ for Miss Keri,& even though she spoke the truth
I think this was a bit unecessary on her behalf..
Do we really need beef in R&B?
We got enough going around with 50 alone.
But then again we all know Beyonce isnt built to respond to things of this nature.
So this diss will go just as fast it came.

Check the track out yourself.

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Solange : ♫ Cosmic Journey ♫

2009-03-01T00:09:00.003-05:00

"I wanna go high"! go head Solo!U definitely diiid that ♥

Making His Band Casting Call March 28th NYC

2009-02-27T18:17:00.009-05:00

mv: so Diddy is having an audition in the city for background vocals on the 28th,u d?
puter: is he really? Ill be calling out of work.

& as easy as that it was confirmed.

So a month from tomorrow my Best & I will be making our way to NYC at the wee hrs, before the sun rises & patiently wait for our chance.

Lord knows my emotions, and he has given me the strength and confidence that I've never had.

...Ive never been a risk taker, and college has been my cushion..
I'm in awe of ever person who just dropped whatever they were doing to go after their dream.

So now that its here I can't pass this opportunity up.
Just thinking about all the things I want to do and how much passion I have, but just sat around doing nothing about it, wondering.. brings me to tears.

But not this time Im going for it.
& no matter the outcome I thank the lord for blessing me with this sudden confidence to even decide to make that trip and tell everyone about it. ♥

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Aquarius: Weekly Overview

2009-02-26T20:06:00.006-05:00

Your altruism kicks in midweek, and you find yourself giving more than you thought you had to someone in need.That's great karma, and it helps smooth the way to

Thursday, which should put you in the middle of a group of like-minded people who meet for informal discussion that could lead somewhere really great.

& Today is Thursday!...my horoscope was soo on point and I didnt even realize it, until i read it almost after the day was over.
Im coming a little closer towards accomplishing one of my passions, its a little more within my reach now,but this is only the beginning.

Hopefully in the near future ill be able to unvail what Ive wanted for sooo long & share it with the world.
Until then Ill continue to give it my all.& Hope that others notice.♥

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When the Money Goes..

2009-02-25T13:16:00.022-05:00

♫When the money goes, will the honeys stay?
When the grey skies replace the sunny days

Would she take a little check from her little job like,
"Nigga, you can have that"
You had belief in me, or would you beef with me?
Is the good life the only thing you needed from me?
Would she roll out? Is she so out when the stoves out?
Or will she hold out?

I'm just saying, when the going gets rough
Don't forget all the shines at the time I was showing up
Show me the same love you showed me when blowing up
You told me it was Roc for life, then throw it up♫ -JayZ

Damn Jay. Thats some real sh't to say.

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I ♥ Beyonce But...

2009-02-23T17:02:00.006-05:00

WHY MUST SHE ALWAYS LOOK LIKE A BARBIE DOLL?!..
SHES AS STIFF AS THE OSCAR MAN BEHIND HER!...
This look is a NO..Been there SEEN that.
I'm soo tired of seeing her look so uptight..
loosen up a bit, stop trying to be perfect & look natural damn..
Is that asking for too much

& Girlfriend (Taraji Henson) worked it!
This is what ur suppose to look like =)
She obviusly didnt try as hard as B did and looked twice as better.

Keri Hilson Album Cover : In A perfect World Out March 24th

2009-02-20T12:20:00.002-05:00

I'm so glad Ms Keri is getting the spotlight she deserves after making number ones for everyone else. Ohhh I can't wait... ♥

Kid Cudi : Day & Nite

2009-02-19T22:43:00.006-05:00

Exclusive Joe Budden : Padded Room

2009-02-18T12:43:00.005-05:00

Delay
Due to complications with the physical product, "Padded Room" was pushed back from October 28, 2008 to February 24, 2009.

Until then, Joe Budden and Amalgam Digital decided to release "Halfway House", a digital-only album featuring 14 brand new songs, on October 28th as a prequel to the album. Which of course was in my posession..

Joe Budden said:

Though I’m not happy about it being pushed so far back, I do understand the method behind the madness. We've got an album that I’m extremely proud of and a lead single that Amalgam Digital and I are both very happy with, but for those of you who are just as anxious as I am, I apologize.

Well we fans appreciated the prequal of Halfway House it held us off & wasnt short changed either =)

Heres some tracks off the album..for those waiting til Tuesday for its release ♥

Plz Dont Stop The Music

2009-02-18T01:32:00.004-05:00

Okay okay even though all the hoopla bs stories of what went down with Rihanna and Chris Brown are quite sad or entertaining depending on who u ask.Id like to get back to the music.

Heres a "faily" new Palow Da Don produced track from Rihanna featuring a verse from Chris Brown.This song has my vote =) well minus the Chris brown "rapping" part.For all of that,might as well put Kanye on the track =|

O & whoever also gave this song to the P.Catdolls (ft Rihanna) made a wrong move. If it aint broke dont fix it =|

->Download It Here Urself<-

I ♥ Our Bullshyttery

2009-02-18T01:17:00.006-05:00

jaye: does my display pic show
jaye: http://www.myspace.com/#########
mv: its cut off
jaye:i knew it
jaye: other people dont see it cut off
jaye: but us
jaye: we must be cool
mv: major Coolage
jaye: ultra coolage !
mv: supreme coolandrophy
mv: gimme some
jaye: *slap hands sideways*

call us weird and we'll look at u blankly=)

...later on that night
mv: what in the hooha
mv: dream signed christina milian
mv: she is all over the place..
jaye: lmao
mv: i bet she praying to the music fairy
mv: that somebody
jaye: dream gon ..
mv: will get her some hits
jaye: give her some hits
mv: what just happen here^^^
mv: did u just say what i said and i didnt really even "say" it
mv: ur a creeper!
jaye: lmao
jaye: rofl

u know thats ur soulmate when he can finish ur sentences even online!♥

....& more randomness
jaye: wow its 1.
mv: 1 o clock?
mv: yes i & didnt study AT ALL. =|
jaye: =/
mv: the internet is the DEBILLLL
jaye: lmao
jaye: debil !

...normally he calls out my cornyness but he laughs..maybe it rubbed off on him

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Pastry Fashion Show : Im sooo not a fan!

2009-02-17T23:33:00.023-05:00

Is that a run in her stockings? At their own "fashion" show.
How Dreadful.

They have style personally..but when it comes to those ^Passtry shoes man..SMH

Their sneakers are a hot mess!;
a horrible attempt at being "cool & different" yuk!
I guess u can say the same for this no name girl group.
Lames rockin lame labels. SMH

But all wasnt lost!!
The happy ending is that Ms Keri Hilson was in the building. I ♥ me some KH

Drake : #18 Congratulations

2009-02-17T23:26:00.003-05:00

Heres the last track off the mixtape
Drake - Congratuations

New Kanye West Video

2009-02-17T18:47:00.000-05:00

Kanye West - Welcome To Heartbreak (feat. KiD CuDi)

Teairra Mari w/ The Comeback?

2009-02-17T17:56:00.005-05:00

Teairra Mari - Hunt For You (feat. Pleasure P)

I never really heard much about her after "Make Her Feel Good" & now its been 4 years since she dropped an album but Im sure theres room for you still...

I always seem to questioned what sets an artist apart from another...I mean she came out around the same time Rihanna did, so what was so different? Was Rihanna more marketable bc she had that West Indian flair and Teairra was just another pretty black girl singing,or maybe it was the timing,there are so many questions...heres a breif interview back in Dec.

She’s Built For This: The Comeback of Teairra Mari'

Livesteez: You guys leaked a song called "Built for This". Is that the new single?

Teairra: "Built for this" is not the first single, but it is an expression of everything that’s going on in my situation right now. It’s me getting something off of my chest. If you have haters then dedicate that song to them.

Livesteez: You were touted as the first lady of Rockafella when you first came out, but then you were randomly dropped not too long after your first album came out. What happened?

Teairra: To be honest, I was asking myself the same question. For a long time, I kind of just put together in my head that it’s just business. The [first] song did well, yeah. The second single did not do well. Album sales did not do so well, so it was business at the end of the day. So, no matter kind of relationship or friendship I thought I had with those people at Def Jam, I really didn’t. It was business. That’s the only thing that I can sum it up to be. Nothing else really happened.

Livesteez: Did you feel like other artists were receiving more attention that you?

Teairra: I feel like we all got proper attention. I feel like there were some bad decisions made with my project, but I don’t feel like they were putting their focus more on this or that. I feel like we all got equal attention.

Ofcourse she would say that.. you have to be professional, but at the end of the day she didnt get the attention she needed..& Rihanna popped out singles back to back giving her that leverage that she has now..it happens with alot of artists. & when ur only as famous as ur first hit & there arent anymore to follow up with it & the money stops coming...ur dropped. its the music biz..So lets see what happens with her deal with Warner Bros.

Feeling Mushy

2009-02-17T01:43:00.001-05:00

"You keep me humble, I like this type
'Cause you know there's more to life
And if I need ya, you will be here
You will make the sacrifice" ♥ 1:1

Drake : So Far Gone Mixtape

2009-02-13T15:30:00.023-05:00

-->Download it Here<--

This Ish Right HERE! Mayne Drake never seems to dissapoint ♥
Heres a little taste of the brand new flavor in my ear.

50 Is A CREEPER!!!

2009-02-13T15:04:00.001-05:00

Okay I seen this video days ago and I'd like to note Im am not a 50 fan so Im half biased towards him, BUT I will never deny this man and the smart moves he makes business wise, in fact he is one hell of a BUSINESS MAN,surpassing the wealth of Jayz and hes only been out since 03. But anyway back to my point...
Even though hes smart, 50 IS STILL A CREEPER!!

50 said it himself "Im a f'cked up N'gga,You Should Do Something To Me" and with soooo much passion in his voice!!
& when u see this video youll agreed.

Single Lady

2009-02-11T22:26:00.006-05:00

So i seem to have like this psychic ability to pick out singles from albums of a few of my favorite artists. I wont name them ofcourse bc I cant prove that, only a few has witnessed my gift, like my roomate and the mr lol whenever I play a song OUT.

Ive been on point & just have an ear for what I think will get radio play. For my future project ill like to pick hmm lets see...
Keri Hilsons In a Perfect World album singles but then again her album has been pushed back since 07 =| but regardless, come next month Ill show u my powers!lol

better yet check out my Mood Music list @ the top my my page
There R a few single worthy songs in there until videos surface
& Im proved right AGAIN lol

So heres to one of my picks Enjoy =)

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Jennifer Hudson’s new video for “If This Isn’t Love,”

One Flame at A Time

2009-02-11T01:29:00.022-05:00

Votes R In! 61 to 37....WOOHOO!

$838Billion for Stimulus Package
=
$25 more added on to that
good ol extended unemployment check "Owww" lol

ATTENTION: I put in my time..dont judge me.
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Times are hard *Pause*...Its no Secret!

When Keepin It "Real" Goes Wrong

2009-02-11T00:37:00.005-05:00

Acme seems to be selling discounted-low-budget-sterotypical items during Black History Month. & although it says it has ran this ad for the past 7 years it is now up for debate by two NAACP chapters.

My take on it. Its Simple:
Its just another way for companies to capitalize
.As Usual.
Done.

{click the ad to read more}

Our Sneaker fetish... for the moment.

2009-02-10T22:53:00.001-05:00

Birthday Weekend in the city.With the Mr.

2009-02-09T23:23:00.006-05:00

Yeah so im 23 and u ask what did I do for my birthday? I ATE. lol... its like damn going out. Imma EAT! I did balance my obesity by taking a stroll in the city as well engage in some recreation activities at Dave & Busters with the berber..but overall I ate..from Apple bees to Fridays and my house in between...

& oh ofcourse I gotta hold of that 99¢slice
note: its a recession remember =|
I guess the price explains why u walk 2 steps & come to realize the pizza is as thin a paper & its cold as ice..but I enjoyed the crust nevertheless

...moving right along..so heres a recap of our evening
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Ah yes this is what I looked foward to seeing the most
*twinkle in my eye*
Im a sucker for lights in the winter♥
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I assigned my self to tour duty =)
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If you dont notice it I wont point it out. Its still Comdey though
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The inner interior decorator couldnt pass up taking this photo =)
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IVE MET MY MATCH

-FIN .|V|.

The Grammys

2009-02-08T01:20:00.002-05:00

"Dream Big" ...maybe one day Ill be in one of these photos =) ♥

CLASSIC THROWBACK
(sidenote: I ♥ them!)

& Last but not least the No Shows...

Chris Brown arrested for domestic abuse? WHO KNEW.
Rihanna in a car accident?.Riight.
So who gave who herpes is THE QUESTION. we all want to know.

History Was Made

2009-01-20T23:50:00.003-05:00

Words can't describe the pride and joy I feel looking at this beautiful family.I witnessed Obama sworn in today as our 44th president while on campus for the first day of class (conspiracy) lol, but none the less I was surrounded with my peers who shared my joy in every moment of watching. Today we all will celebrate, but there will be work to be done and it wont be done over night. For a man to come sooo far and give us all hope is truely nothing less then amazing. When college students and those who have never been interested in politics before in their life rush to a television to watch an inaguration on CNN and trade in their designer shirts for Obama para..it shows that we are definitely in a new age. Im just blessed to be apart of it. ♥

**of course I could go on and on , but less is more in this case
plus im a bit tired but I just couldnt help but post=) **
Goodnite All HAPPY OBAMA DAY!!

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First Post of 09 : 2 for the price of 1 =)

2009-01-05T20:14:00.009-05:00

Ive been M.I.A for a month, someone asked me why havent I made any posts. I didnt think anyone would notice actually. But to my surpirse someone did that made me smile =) So here I go... my first post in the New year. O'Joy!

So yeah there has been holidays in passing enough to blabber about, but ah I havent been given the photos to go with the texts so I'll pass on that. I might once i get them other then that honestly the reason I havent posted is because lately I havent been inspired to. But I felt moved to today so yeah.....Ahem

Its a "New Year" yes..but why front and post resolutions and all that jazz, when in reality its useless. I know what I have to do I know what I should do. So the list is all mentally stored. No outlandish goals for myself, I will not utter bs comments of how this year is going to be sooo different. Oh pleez! ppl say that every damn year. Only difference is the change of date and the attitudes seem to carry over from year to year.
So in saying that there will only be change IF I ALLOW IT TO. Im not going to miraculously change when the clock strikes 12 and the year increases. Its a process and each year I change and do things differently,I'm an Aquarius meaning I'm very unpredicatable, which Ive grown to like that =).

But hopefully this year Ill try and watch what I say to the man I love the most. He gets the backlash to everything and takes it in stride =) I sometimes wonder how he puts up with me. I could go on get the bloggin about us alone lol. But I'll pass on that as well.So moving along....

In essence there are things that I wish to accomplish and change over a period of time not just because its 2009! So to those of u trying to act BRAND NEW or talk urself into it just because its a New Year. Stop it. LoL. You're only fooling yourselves.

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& onto another topic. I may not be holy or what you would call a "church girl".I considered myself "spiritual" not "religious"...and I have my reasons, But just last year I got baptised and found a church home that was relevant to me. & despite not being that "church girl" I have always had a relationship with God, and tried to do right by him.

Even in my darkest moments he's blessed me. I dont know what kind of person I would have been without those trying times. & if it wasn't for my faith and my belief that everything happens for a reason, I dont know where I would be. & for that I'm forever grateful.

I could write a book about my past and my pain. But I'm pretty sure we all could. & actually when I was at my lowest points I picked up a pen and just wrote. Its not my first love of course, singing my heart out is =) but it all depends on what we do with the bad times and how we use it to strengthen us. I spent NYE in church, and brought it in the way I wanted to. Again I'm not trying to come off as some saint because honestly I know close to nothing about the bible nor the stories it tells. I'll get there though. & To tell yall the truth just up until 2 years ago church use to be something that I didnt really care for nor seen the purpose of in all honesty...But, I've had a change of heart and now it does matter to me.

Some of you may feel that its still irrelevant and may never change that attitude, which is fine, but for me it serves a purpose & I can go there all by myself & there I feel closet to God and thats all that really matters. Because at the end of the day, he's the one who loves me and looks after me the most. I'm sure he would still love me as he did when I didnt go, but something in my spirit brings me to go. Its the least I can do with 3 hours out of my whole week. I fell off during the past few months but I'm back at it and I plan on joining the choir to fufill this urge of singing. Maybe after all my shyness this will be the means I need to let it alll out =) Thanks be to God ♥

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Tagged By *RantsofAWildChild

2008-12-09T14:44:00.003-05:00

So Here are My Random Facts: |v| =)

1. I have a phobia of shopping carts behind me in supermarkets.

2. I met my soulmate in a chatroom almost a decade ago.

3. I organize my clothes in my closet by jeans,short sleeves,sweaters,& hoodies (in that exact order)

4. Im terribly afraid to stepout of my shell & sing in public
My own Personal Issues...
(Its like having the feeling that someone is reading ur diary =X)

5. I wear a size 4 in dunks & Im 4 foot 12 lol ..yea i know thats incorrect but it sounds funny

6. If Tupac were alive we'd be married ♥

7. My mom is Puerto Rican & My dad is Guyanese
(I understand spanish, but I biterly blame my mother for not brining me up bi-lingual)

Tag ur It =)
S.W.C
LaaLaa
April
Realglam
ssencesontriel
Randa
Nesa
......and anyone else who wants to do this =)

My Joy.

2008-12-05T14:27:00.001-05:00

First and Foremost I have to say God Is Good!!!
Reason being..the loves of my life (my brothers) have been givin a second chance by being released
on Dec 4th, after having 8 months to get their shyt together.
I prayed for them before and Im definitely praying for them now.
Boy those nights were hard, filled with tears
thinking of where they were & why they got there..
pure dissapointment.
Ive heard the statistics of our men in jail and never would I want that for my own family.What got them in there was their own young stupidity and what will keep them out will be their maturity and I hope they used the time inside to reevaluate where they want their lives to go at the age of 16 and 17.

There is soooo much out there for them and I only want them to have the world.They are my rock,my drive, my everything it feels as though Ive been there mother through all these years and I make every advancement to succeed because of them.

Me and these two went through a whooole lot growing up.
Things that will not be aired out but it only bonded us even more.
& Now that I am older and should be able to care for them I cant.
I only wish that I could be closer to guide them in their transition to manhood.
But despite my absence I know God will walk with them and my faith in him leaves me worry free. ♥
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The End of the Year Is Here

2008-12-01T00:32:00.014-05:00

So December has arrived, its the end of 2008 and Im in a reflecting mood.
Thoughts cross my mind about where my life would be in the yr O'Eight, what I was suppose to have accomplished.etc.
But now its back to reality and none of it has gone as planned.

4 years have gone by since I graduated high school & this yr should have been my last.
Unfortunetely life throws things in your path that you dont expect.
Especially mine.
I use to be hung up on the whole graduation timing thing,
but everything happens for a reason and I truely believe that.

Within these 4 years..Ive been enrolled in two different universities but I think Im finally on track. Despite the hangups of being an unfulfilled undergrad at Kean to becoming familiar with the "RU Screw", sabotaging my hard earned credits..so back to Kean I go ツ
Surprisingly I'm content, because this was a decision based on what I wanted.
No more stressing the name that will appear on my diploma but rather focusing on moving on with my life & finishing what I started.

I had plans, had my life mapped out at the age of 11 until 25.
Sad, yes.. but true.
But ask me if I would do that again now at 23 and I can't, I won't.
Life is so unpredicatable and so am I..
Hot and cold, carefree and uptight.
The older I get the more I care less to plan ahead.
It use to frighten me not knowing or having an idea of the future.
I guess that stems back from my childhood and being surrounded by uncertainty and disfunction..that I've become some what of a perfectionist.
I'm growing into my own skin slowly but surely, accepting life and everything that goes "wrong" in it, its liberating.

And now its almost time to think of New Year's resolutions,
I use to make a short list but this year I only have one idea.
To Accept & embrace change...better yet..Become change.
In every aspect of myself and my views..
I admire those who think outside of the box..& have no problem with taking risks
But sometimes its hard to break out of old habits.
Im trying day by day.
I guess thats the only thing I can do.. Let go and Let God.♥

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23 Masks of DeSTiny Fall '08

2008-11-24T18:17:00.010-05:00

Congrats to the
Ladies of the Delta Zeta Chapter of ΔΣΘ,Inc.
♥SHY-SHY I See U #12!♥

It was cold out but yall did the damn thing!!

♫Mood Muzic:The Over & Under Rated♫

2008-11-21T16:50:00.006-05:00

Release Date : Nov 25th|

::Mr.West::
I have my favs on this album as u can tell by the musicplayer.
*Warning* This is not your average Hip-Hop album.
Hes sooo outside the box, Dares to do what no one has done
and I love that about him.
and by the way His arrogance is my cup of tea =).
Ill be listening to this for weeks to come.
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|Release Date : Oct 28th|

::Joey::
Although I am I heavy soulful music listener when I do get into Hip-Hop mode.Joe Buddens is one of the lyricist at the top of my list.
His song "Just to be different" explains it all.
Too many ppl sleep on this dude.
That just goes to show the direction of Hip Hop as a whole at the moment.
Its soo commercial and its sad.So if you not on to him already.
I suggest you tune in.
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|Release Date : Nov 24th|

::Luda::
Another what I call lyricist,but I have to say this album wasnt one of his bests, It didnt make me feel the need to even give it a second listen.But despite that im sure it has more lyrical content then... *insert name of two stepping dancer/rapper here*

- |v|

Real Housewives ATL Reunion Clips

2008-11-20T18:41:00.001-05:00

Im not much of an idiot box watcher but when I do engage in it, it'll be tuned into to Bravo.I have to admit I watched the last season in NYC and quite frankly it had nothin on Atlanta. So yes Ill be one of the many eager viewers waiting for the full reunion to air this coming Tuesday.
This season went by toooo fast.Lisa seemed to be favorite until she came off as the anti-confontational "Snitch" but after watching this I was proven wrong. Lisa got some fight in her lol...Im a RHW junkie, sue me =)

H.A.L.F - Viva La Vent "Diva Pt 1"

2008-11-13T16:15:00.004-05:00

*WARNING* Not for the Faint of Heart!

OMG so I had to share this, pure Hilarium, Yea I said it lol
I know its not a word but this shyt is beyond funny..
There are going to be ALOT of angry "Divas" after hearing this.
Kudos to HALF I Love it!! If you take offense to this then sorry fa ya,
The truth hurts doesnt it. Aaa Haa

I Have to get it off my chest.

2008-11-13T02:03:00.020-05:00

Nevermind trends, nevermind what anyone has to say.
Nevermind those creating a blog to only show how sheepish they really are.
At the end of the day I write because its authentic.
Actually I havent written in years, because I honestly havent felt moved to.
But I guess its time.
Im not at my lowest point as I may have been before,
& even though Im not at my highest either. Im not content.
When I first picked up a pen it came to me just as its coming to me this very moment.

Its not geared for an audience of any sort.
It doesnt rhyme or necessarily have a flow to it...
...there are other times for that.
And right now isnt the time. This is what u call venting.
Even doing so kind of makes me sheepish in a way.
The thing with me is Im not here for anyone nor to put on a show.
Its comes from a real place.
If ur rambling because u fell the urge to from within and u cant help but to use this vevy box as an outlet to ur reality.Do it.
But if you find yourself looking at other pages for inspiration
Becoming someone ur really not..blending in instead or standing out.
Using it as another means for showcasing how uncreative u really r
Addicted to it as if this were a myspace of some sort
.Give it up.

But then again who am I to judge.
Its just an opinion. I cant help but to address.
So again I applaud all the creative minds & give credit when its due.
Just dont get caught up in blogging as if its the new cool thing to do.
If thats ur frame of mind I feel for you.
Just dont look to this page for the latest trend of the time.
Because Im so not here for that.
Thats all I have to say for now.

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Selfish

2008-11-13T01:20:00.001-05:00

I ask u for soooo much, I'm just selfish
I was there when u had noo clue what u wanted out of life, I'm so selfish
I take ur words and jokes to heart, I'm selfish
I make a display of my humor at your expense,I'm selfish
I'm patient with u for a whole year after u had 8, but I'm selfish
I adjust to it and say dont get too comfortable yet nothing changes. but I'm selfish
I'm not cut out for this
So Ill just continue being selfish.

|v|

My President Is Black

2008-11-05T05:37:00.000-05:00

I was apart of history last night and it feels DAMN GOOD!!!!

As the saying goes
ROSA PARKS sat so DR. KING could walk...
Dr. king walked so OBAMA could run....
OBAMA IS RUNNIN SO OUR KIDZ CAN FLY!!!!!...
ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! & OBAMA IS A SIGN FOR HOPE.

Free TV : Ustream
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Photos from last nights RUTGERS VICTORY PARADE =)
It was definetely a memorable night here in New Brunswick!

His Need.Her Need

2008-11-01T18:38:00.001-04:00

A purpose
A reason
A goal
An accomplishment
Completeness…
Because without her, he is only Half.

To grow
To learn from her mistakes
To live out her dreams
To be patient for him...
Because without him she is only Half.

Everything they need is in each other.
But they must find themselves by themselves
Until they can become whole again.

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F.Y.I : History Repeats Itself

2008-10-29T16:02:00.000-04:00

Okay so Im at work and I came across a good point concerning Beyonce's new video "Single Ladies" on another blog website.
If anyone knows me they would know that I am in fact a Beyonce fan although I will never hesitate to point out some of her uncreative moments such like today. For those that didnt know like I obviously didnt lol...She clearly reused moves in her video from the 60s Bob Fosse. Again I am a fan but facts are facts. =)Take a look

Seasons

2008-10-26T04:20:00.001-04:00

Which one are we in you ask
I’m not exactly sure, but with time it’ll change
Suddenly just as it did almost 10 years ago
Hopefully next time it'll be in our favor
I know things are different now
We have some of our own leaves to shed
It’s only natural.
But as hard as it is it’s out of our hands
Destiny isn’t within our reach
So ill patiently welcome the change
Accepting my own transformation as well as yours
Sooner then later. It’ll be spring again.

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Hunger

2008-10-24T15:33:00.002-04:00

“Packing up my shh and I'm going real far
Going off to Hollywood to be a big star
There's nothing here for me so I gotta move fast
And I'm getting on the road and I will never look back
I gotta dream big cuz when it happens its gon' happen real quick
Yes I feel it
I gotta move fast cuz when it happen I cant let it move past
When it feels like you been waiting all your life for that second
You'll be a fool to just let it past so go and get it
No matter near or far, to the moon, the stars
I'll do whatever I need to follow my dream”

The visions of fame run through my mind
Something I won’t give up before I even try
Will I be good enough? Would I even make it to the top?
Too much doubt overwhelms me so the fantasizing begins to stop
But I’m in too deep and end up where I am now..writing
Writing about love, life, and pain
It’s all just a substitute for what I really want out of life’s game
Its either you’re destined for it or you’re fooled to think you are
Hundreds try and fail believing they’re born to be stars
I feel the hunger for it in my heart
I feel this could be it for me if I only start
But where do I begin? Taking opportunities aren’t as easy as they seem
I wish it was but if I want it bad enough it’ll have to begin with me
Maybe later on I’ll look back at this
And Hopefully it isnt a chance I missed
But I do believe that this could be my key to happiness
And I do believe that I am blessed
Blessed with a talent that dying to be recognized
...If only I try

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“I gotta dream big cuz when it happens its gon' happen real quick
...Yes I feel it
I gotta move fast cuz when it happens I cant let it move past “

Friend

2008-10-24T10:52:00.001-04:00

Shady people are all I ever see
Smile in your face but talk about you discretely.
Being the best friend that I can
Bending over backwards time & time again.
Having someone you could fully confide in
Without them changing on you, the chances are slim.
A helping shoulder I lent
Wasted time spent
Always there to vent
Now its your turn to repent
Never once did I betray you
But your true colors seeped through
So I'll bid you adieu
And no longer a "friend" will I label you.

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Stripped

2008-10-23T10:45:00.001-04:00

Fondest memories bonded in my mind
Happiness and laughter fading after time.
Sorrow and pain beginning to appear
Loneliness coming closely near.
How can you understand the pain one feels
The heart and soul impossible to heal.
Here I AM stripped of facades you see
And no longer care of how you may judge me.
So accept as I am originally
And let your heart not your eyes see me finally.

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You are

2008-10-22T00:09:00.001-04:00

The sound of you brings happiness to my ears
The one experiencing my ups and downs as well as my tears.
The thought of you has an indescribable effect on me
The comforter of my frustrations and agony.
The one who has never let me down when I was in need
Asking for advice and given them unexpectedly.
My first love as well as my very last
With you there are no secrets or no masks.
For you are the one I appreciate each and everyday
Never taking you for granted, despite those that may.
You are the one who encourages me to go on
No matter the time or emotion there’s always a song.
Whether I’m excited or at my lowest points in life
You turn it around and make it easier to sleep at night.
The one whose ending never arrives
If ever such a thing, my soul would surely die.
You are the essence of my hopes and dreams
And I will rest in peace with the aid of you by any means.
Because you are my life, my love, and my world
You are Music. And I’ve been in love with you since a little girl.
An endless love destined for a lifetime
I am forever yours as you are mine.

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Fear

2008-10-21T21:07:00.002-04:00

This fear is so deep it kills me.
I watch it, I see it, I feel it.
I am it, but I don’t live it.
Music saved my life, your life, our lives.
But how can it change mines... if I wont allow it.
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